Does anybody even read this anymore?
I need to vent, and Facebook ain't gonna do it. Megan Schmidt, this is YOUR fault, in that you reminded me of LJ's existence. So please, forgive my stream-of-consciousness whining.
I don't know where I belong. I don't know what I'm supposed to be doing. I have lot's of friends, but I wonder if they're actually supposed to be friends. I go out, and I hate every second of it. Sure, id I drank five more drinks, it would be AWESOME, but is that a solution. No. I shouldn't need five drinks. I shouldn't need any drinks. But I drink nonetheless. But my possible alcoholism is not the issue, so I digress. I have nothing in common with my current/former group of friends. And the people I consider my best friends, I never see (except for one or two, who happens to be close and has a car, but our schedules still kinda suck). So I feel like I'm drifting away from everybody, and it SUCKS, because that's the exact opposite of what I need after the year from hell. So I dunno. I need to find both purpose and a way to see friends.
I must stop now, before a blabber. But I'm going to TRY to do daily entries, for the sake of sanity that doesn't involve one sentence Facebook blurbs. Thanks for reading. :-)
- Christopher Robin McKinney
Current Music: Chelsea Lately
Jan. 8th, 2010 @ 12:31 am
It does still exist.
What are you afraid of? The usual- bees, spiders, unsecured high areas, hidden closet/bedbottom killers. Above all the is being tickled. Wow... that REALLY pisses me off. But really, only one fear of mine worries me. The future. For me, for you, and all of us. Death will be the eventual uncertain destination, but until then, emotions will make us do things to make that very path a very hard road. Finances? I won't have children. My acting days seem prepacked in boxes, and my Grandparents remind me of their eventual departures. Thank GOD I actually attempt to live in today, because while your future can be well-planned, the rest of humanity ixn't quite so prepared.
Argh, Ambien... I need to sleep now!
Apr. 27th, 2007 @ 03:50 am
This is WAY too true.
- Christopher Robin
P.S. I may be a moron, but I just found out that mayonnaise isn't a dairy product. Wacky!
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Technically, I should be writing an actual LJ entry to update everyone on my exciting my life. But screw that, it's survey-time. And... go!|
1. What bill do you hate paying the most?
Rent, and not just because it's the biggest. I just always remember it exists about three days of work before it's due, so everything kinda turns into a busting-my-ass-for-tips blue/panic. But then, I pay it, and the cycle of ignorant bliss continues.
2. Where's the best place to eat a romantic dinner?
A cozy, dimly-lit restaurant, preferably Italian or Cuban, completely empty with an hour left till close. It sounds cliche, but it's perfect.
3. Last time you puked from drinking?
A month or so ago. I was working a Friday Jazz night, but I had a bad toothache, so I had some brandy. And somehow, I just kept refilling the cup, so by 9, I was dropping plates, crying in the kitchen, and breaking down in front of regulars. I went home and hurled, my customers were told I had "family issues", and somehow I managed to keep my job and status as "the good server". Wacky.
4. Have you ever gotten drunk and danced on a bar?
I've danced on the bar at Emilio's before, but I was very much sober.
5. Name of your first grade teacher?
6. What are you doing right now?
Doing a survey, you twit. Also, listening to music and drinking V-8.
7. What did you want to be when you were growing up?
RICH. FAMOUS. POPULAR. ::sigh:: As long as I'm singing somewhere once a week, I don't really care.
8. How many colleges did you attend?
9. Why did you wear the shirt that you have on right now?
Robert said it would look good on me. I agree, but I'm changing after this anyway.
10. GAS PRICES! First thought?
Oh, they're up again. ::shrug::
11. If you could move anywhere and take someone with you, where?
Nathan and I would lead the life in a New York City penthouse that overlooks Central Park.
12. First thought when the alarm went off this morning?
"Dammit, Ley, why is your alarm going off when you're not even home?!"
13. Last thought before going to sleep last night?
Probably something about fluffing a pillow.
14. Favorite style of underwear?
15. Favorite style of underwear for the opposite sex?
16. What errand/chore do you despise?
I DON'T DUST. I hate it, hate it, HATE to dust.
17. If you didn't have to work, would you volunteer?
Yes, just one slow night a week so I could bullshit with my restaurant people.
18. Get up early or sleep in?
Sleep in. If I'm up early, I probably never went to bed.
19. Who is your favorite cartoon character?
Leela, from Futurama.
20. Favorite NON sexual thing to do at night with a girl/guy?
Play with their hair. SUCH a great feeling, for both parties.
21. A secret that you wouldn't mind everyone knowing.
22. When did you first start feeling old?
When my clothes stopped fitting because my weight came back. ::pouts:: I miss being a small.
23. Favorite 80's movie?
Indiana Jones and The Temple of Doom. I honestly could listen to Kate Capshaw's constant screaming all day long. Add in monkey brains, Kali-Ma, and Cole-Porter-done-Chinese, and I'm in love.
24. Your favorite lunch meat?
25. What do you get every time you go into Costco/Sam's Club?
Beef jerky and/or rice crackers.
26. Beach or lake?
27. Do you think marriage is an outdated ritual that was invented by people who died at 20?
The union of two people in love and the wish to share that love with friends and family, despite a few fundamentalist bad apples, will remain a beautiful, relevent thing.
28. Who do you stalk on MySpace/LJ?
You. And you. Not you.
29. Favorite guilty pleasure?
[deleted]. [deleted]. [deleted}. Um... karaoke and buffets.
30. Favorite movie you wouldn't want anyone to find out about?
The Stepford Wives remake. It was just so... pretty.
31. What's your drink?
Generally Rum Rummers and a Manhattan straight up. But should it ever become more readily available, the mint julep would beat all.
32. Who from high school would you like to run into?
Any guy who came out after graduation. Seems there were a LOT of them. PUSSIES.
33. What radio station is your car radio tuned to right now?
Haha, like I'll ever have a car again. Funny funny.
34. What is a rumor that someone has spread about you?
I'm gay (true), I'm slutty (was true), I'm an alcoholic (not yet), I'm a snob (never).
35. The Cosby Show or the Simpsons?
The Simpsons, no contest, if only because they did NOT give us Raven-Symone.
36. Worst relationship mistake that you wish you could take back?
I still feel bad for spoiling surprise cake and pudding for no reason at all. Though everything tasted good the next day, my selish actions left a bitter taste in my mouth
37. Do you like the person who sits directly across from you at work?
God, some jobs actually involve sitting, don't they? Wow.
38. If you could get away with it, who would you kill?
Whoever "won" the lottery amongst the "My Super-Sweet Sixteen" birthday-girls, the hoity-toity judges from "Top Design", and Aaron Sorkin.
39. What famous person would you like to have dinner with?
Lindsey Lohan, so I can ask her what the FUCK she's doing to herself.
40. What famous person would you sleep with?
I still love you, Jude Law.
41. Have you ever had to use a fire extinguisher for its intended use?
42. Ever feel like running over a pedestrian?
No, because usually that pedestrian is me.
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First accomplishment of the day: discovering a new pet peeve.|
I was watching "Golden Girls" (the one where Sophia buys a Cuban boxer), and for the most part, it's a good episode. But then the boxer turned out to be a promising violinist/actor, and, as often happens when one-time characters start talking on "GG", it went downhill. Suddenly, the boxer/actor/whatever goes into a Shakespearean monologue (while also using "Cuban" in place of "Jew" so we know it's a personal statment) while everybody looks on in awe. Later, he gets into Juilliard after botching a violin audition by using the same speech.
And that's my pet peeve: really bad actors playing "really good actors".
Supporting example? "High School Musical". 'nuf said.
P.S. OH! And I remember seeing a few sitcoms where somebody ends up playing the lead in "Romeo & Juliet", and of course they always show the balcony scene. Unfortunately, Juliet's "Whereforth art thou, Romeo?" always has her looking for where Romeo is, and he appears to answer her. Misinterpretation! No, not even that. Just dumbness.
Okay, I'm done.
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Well, tonight I'm introducing my boyfriend Robert to my grandparents. It should go well, but still... haven't done this in a long while, and it was much more casual back then. Oy.|
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|» Christmas miracles.|
So, without going into too much detail (I'm tired, it's late/early), this has been the most emotionally fulfilling Christmas I've had in many, many years. Time with family, time with friends, meeting the boy's family (and then spending two days with them), attending midnight mass, seeing most of Dreamgirls (Robert felt sick)... it was nice. Oh, and so much food. I love food.|
I'm so damn content, it hurts. That can't be right. :-) But it is.
P.S. I may detail later, we'll see. It depends on what happens when I start playing "Twilight Princess".